Looking back at past, I wonder myself what went wrong? I never thought we will wind up like this, and separate like this way that we do not want to see each other anymore. I never imagined we will hate each other this much.
It was a perfect relation. It may be was not as passionate as Romeo and Juliet or was not as romantic as Indian movies. But we were fit for each other. We had our own world and we were happy in it. I mean we were really happy, at least I was. The time we spent in the cold weather, I will never be able to forget. I was wearing sweater with heavy over coat and still shaking with cold and you, just in t-shirt and mini and looking fine. Sleeping by your side, when I woke up in the middle of night, you were looking at my face, playing with my hairs and kissing my forehead and lips. You said that you do not want to waste bit of time by sleeping. You were the one, used to stare my face all night long while I was sleeping.
You were not the first girl I dated, you were not the last one, and you were not the prettiest one too. But I can say that you were the one who I really fall for. You have some thing that left a deep impact in my heart. You are an intelligent girl. Matter fact you are really intelligent compare to any girl of your age. Your intellectual and passionate conversation may be the real attraction than anything else. The way you expressed yourself, your future plan, your helping nature, was that all fake? Were you just saying that to impress me? It was not just because I told you that I want to go Africa when I have my career to help the children there dying everyday.
You lied to me. You lied me about yourself, about your parent, and everything. Every single word came out of your mouth was nothing but a lie. The tears in your eyes, the cry in your heart, and the sadness in your face was all fake. I still want to believe on those teary eyes, sad face, and crying heart but I do not know how. You didn?t leave anything behind that I can believe about you. Do you still remember the first time you got drunk, according to you, and the first time you smoke? You were fighting for wine while you were already drunk and almost ready to pass out. I had to drawn it in sink. You got mad and you kicked my balls so bad that I almost knocked down in the carpet. Do you still remember me drinking wine from your belly bottom and you getting all excited? Getting up in the middle of night, dance in Goo Goo Doll song ?I just want you to know who I am.? Just you and me in our own world, in our birthday suit.
You betrayed me. I dump you. But I was the one who got hurt. Do you still remember the black guy in the street calling us King and Queen? When I looked your face that time you were all blushing, and shinning. Wow that was a good fake expression you had. Flunking classes, being away from friends, dying to get married. You really know how to act, you know how to lie, and you know how to hurt.
I do not mean you are all bad and I am all good. There have been many incidences that I had to be with you but I could not. I took many things for granted. I took you for granted. You were always with me all the hard time I was going through. I really thank you for that and will appreciate all my life. But the time has changed, things have been different. Now I can see small beam of light at the end of dark tunnel. I can see a lovely morning after the scary night of my life but you are not with me. You were with me at the dark time of my life and now it is getting brighter and I am all alone.
