It was a regular Tuesday morning; I had a class early in the morning. I woke up, wanted to pee really bad. There my roommate is. I stood there for an hour waiting her to come out… she comes out sees me………. She stares at me like my face was completely new to her…. I felt like she was looking through me but not at me. I couldn’t wait to shut the door and ignore her deadly look. I dressed up as normally I would do and left for school. The first impression after I got up early in the morning was what traced all my day. All day long I felt like I was stared and was observed so carefully. I felt like my pictures were posted on every gas station for a reward and everyone was trying to verify me with my picture. My classmates did the same. When it was too much I left the class went to the bathroom to check if something was wrong with me. I gazed into the mirror for more than half hour. But no, I looked as I usually did. Nothing was different. Why would every single one out there give me such a vampire look?
School was over. I don’t know if it was me who felt really uncomfortable among the people around me that day, but trust me I was observed as if I was a physics laboratory experiment for them. At work, in the evening, same thing happened repeatedly. A woman standing behind the bar came and talked to me like she had known me for ages. I ignored her all the time with the excuses of other work. Every time I passed by her, I noticed her intent looks. I asked myself thousand times why people were looking at me that bad making me so embarrassed. I thought for instance if I was so beautiful to be observed that way, or my beauty was not easily noticeable that everyone had to watch me and my activities so subterranean, or is it because I was so ugly that they had to perceive my ugliness from my face. The answer was never revealed. And I don’t think it will be ever. And I don’t wish it to be revealed ever..
