Dear loved one,
I was alone. You were alone. You were in your world. I was in my world. By chance, one day we knew each other. We talked to each other. We expressed our feelings. We spent hours in conversation in search of answers, in search of truth, in search of understanding each other. We were two different personalities, had different backgrounds, different perspectives of life, but there were plenty of common thoughts, common sentiments. Something you liked about me, some I liked about you. All of a sudden friendship developed to mutual respect, trust and love. Unknowingly the intimacy grew beyond my control and perhaps beyond your control too.
One day you said you had started loving me. I was very glad. But you said you desired a relationship. You wanted commitments. Oh it was something I was not ready for from the beginning. Yes, I did tell you that I was not for a relationship with you. Because, we had stark differences, that would not work in practical life.
Everything about you was flawless. Your perfect features did not belong to me. You did not deserve my chains. I wanted you to live and see what it means to be free. For I was not in a position to fulfil your expectations and dreams, I said I was not for your life.
It was the reality which you must have faced one day. So I told you the truth honestly but you were sad. And that sadness has caused a storm in my heart and torn me apart. I feel guilty to help making you sad. I am tearful, I am bleeding and I am hurt like a wingless little bird, because I made you cry.
I had no option than to tell you the truth. That would prevent you from crying all life. So even I liked you and loved you, I asked you to spread your wings and fly away: in search of your dream, in search of your soul-mate. With a heavy heart, with a painful voice, I told you to save your love for some one who can fulfil your desires.
Go and discover the man of your life. And know that wherever you go, whatever you do and might feel, I have my support to you and all the best wishes are for you. Let me not miss to see your happiness, let me not miss your fun and laughter. Allow me to be a good friend of you and forgive me for not being able to live up to your expectations.
For the weaknesses I possess, I am not for relationship with a perfect person. I don?t want to see you cry. I have heard it and that is too much for me.
With love,
a friend.
