As I packed my bags,
Suitcases filled with cloths
And my modest belongings
My precious plants, framed pictures, and old souvenirs
All neatly boxed, wrapped and ready to be shipped
Tired, I sit on my couch
Thirstily I raise a bottle of water and gulp
My eyes flutter - could it be a sign?

I laid on my bed, closed my eyes,
And then slowly raised my eyelids
On the corner, next to the closet
I saw a white plastic bag
Neglected, wearied, dusty and torn
I stared at it for a moment
Heartbeat loud, paced faster
As if it is you in front of me
Stupid me!
Slowly to the corner, I picked - opened
You smile from the top of the piles
You have not changed
How can you? This was a mere picture
It does not change
Unlike you...
And me...
Then there was this other one, between friends
How that camera caught us stealing those glance
And remember the one in which you cried?
I kept on teasing you until you dried.
Those letters with few words
Inks faded, hardly readable
But amazingly, it's engraved,
In my soul
How is it possible?
I do not even love you anymore.

ok ma pani join in hai..dun mind me ..as always ;o)..but its ur mind..feel free if u wanna use it..duh! ;oP hehe..

anyways yeah indi bro..was waitn for this to move on ;oP...quite a nice surprise(isnt everyday ..everytime a surprise?;oP hehe) when i reached home..and well was ready to check the daily news..and of cos wats here ;o)..hehee..kinda becomin a one time a day thingy...and hope it sticks that way wahahahaa..u knw its pretty tirin and frustratiin to click the f5 button countless of times..and not seeing anything new..or if its new..smthing peaceful ;oP hehe...

yeah..u made me think when u mentioned "himalayas' ;oP hehe..and no..not that way..was thinkn about the hills ke :oD..or those others..that do slope..but cant even be considered a hill?;oP hehe..i mean they do their part too dun they?for the rivers?not noticable...like the himalayas..and the mountains..but def..more than the moutains?im askn!!hehe..i mean doesnt earth crust consist of more percent of those that cant called be mountains?:oD...and no!earth aint flat!!!...dun call it flat!!eyes lies!!!full of contours i tell u!!;oP hehe...

plus yeah...tho mountains..when i see them..of cos i cant take me eyes of them!;oP hehe..duh!!!..esp the white moutains ;o)..hehe..(oi!im talkn about natural moutains!!!urghhh double meanings in every word!!it aint fair!!im tryn to say smthing..and i think it sounds like another thing :oS hehe)..but dun moutains scare u?nice to watch..but the climb?yeah its exhilarating(well i havent climbed one to vouch for it..but i just feel it will be!duh!;oP hehe..plus brainwashed by other mountain climbers sharing their exploits?:oS ;oP hehe)...but aint it supposed to be tough?as u mentioned..destruction?:oS..many have lost their lifes..heart stopped!broke?:o( hehe..limbs..and wat not?:oS hehe..and well..guess once u climb one..u just want to go higher?..plus the higher it gets..the colder it gets :oS hehe...nature and its way of telln us things?or is it just me?wahahahaha ;oP hehee..

yeah do dream of climbing sagarmatha..or any moutains in the himalayas..if not them..then any other mountains on earth?;oP hehe..but in the end..yeah gotta be realistic?just am hopin that i get a chance and be able to trek Annapurna basecamp(the lowest one;oP hehe)..if tht happens..then aim higher?;oP hehe..but seriously!hah!i think i have a phobia of heights!hehe..cant believe how soft me legs gets when i realise im in high places :oS hehe..ok ok where was i?;oP...

yeah the lower plains pls!!!!not everyone is a moutain person are they?;oP hehe..the nice nice warm soft plains pls ;o)...where one can lie down in the soft (hah anyone watches Glass House?aussie comedy skit ;oP..they are talkn about..u know wat!coincidence eh?;oP hehe..anyways where was i?:oS hehe)..lie in the soft soft grasses...where the sun shines..and it feels warm(is it the grass?or is it cos of the sun ;o) hehe...)..filled with tranquality..esp when one sees the beautiful white himalayas range...no obstacles in between...and seein the himalays makes one feel good..brings a smile..but is it the himalaya that is doin that?or is it cos one knows..how much tempting the himalayas are..one cant stop feeln..one has the best where one is..and yeah feeln not all are born to be mountain climbers ?..for ppl who aint mountain climbers(some aint..cos they dun try?lazy arses eh?;oP hehe)..good for them..they got the hills for them ;o)..and wat not?;oP hehe

and oh..ppl who thinks height matters hehe..duh!if u dun look at sea level..wat is that moutain name that is in hawaii(?)..from base to summit..taller than Sagarmatha re?:oS...we cant see all can we?;oP hehe..does this also mean..we cant climb all moutains..some we have to swim?wahahahah..im feeln sick :oS ..doctor!!!medicine!!!;oP hehe..

anyways i think i better stop..tho there are things i would have liked to share about some other lines ..lines of urs that made me think of smthing ;oP hehe..and thio baadar ko ta nabhaney huncha..he is born to climb?;oP..salla thinkn of a pair of bananas ho?;oP hehee

la ta..till u move again ;o) hehe..hopefully will keep silent then..silence is golden re?;oP hehe...wanna collect golds!!!!!i need it..:o(..who doesnt?;oP hehe...

cant stop thinkin about those long long stretch of plain hills..with those long long grasses(wheat?rice?watever ..but they are long ;oP hehe)...so let me go see wat it brings me to ;o) hehe..long nice sleep i hope :oD hehe..

good day :oD..

Indi,

I know that movie was one of a kind. Well i do like Pacino but can't claim to be a fan bcoz I haven't managed to watch GodFather yet.. (Shame on me..). But I have watched his ohter movies.. just marvelous.. can't get enough of Scarface !!!!

Oh damn Sunnydev, I was rather lost with the Kleenex comment. I was like, huh, and then hahaha. And what about the impromptu before that one? That was quite abstract. Was it a random thought in oblivion? I was kind of lost.

I have not forgotten the fate and ship phrase. I so want to incorporate that in one of the pieces. Have a good weekend mate!
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Hahaha Danny bro, you have me in splits.
So bro, you said you like White Mountains eh'? Malai ta "Nepali Sagarmatha" nai pyaro. LOL.

"...and thio baadar ko ta nabhaney huncha..he is born to climb>;oP ..salla thinkn of a pair of bananas ho?;oP hehe"

Hahaha I think he was talking about apples and oranges ;)

So you want to hear about plains? ;) That's the scary one. One wrong turn of words and I am history. I think, shortly I am gonna be brutally abused by the authority that is regardless ;)
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Ma_Chameli,
Ah Scarface! That's another marvel. I've lost count on how many times I've gone thru that one. Good Father, Scarface, Dog Day Afternoon, Scent of a woman, and couple of more are in the league of their own. Then there are Carlito's way, Sea of love, Doni Brasco, Serpico and many more.

If you like Pacino and you have not seen Godfather, that shall count as treachery of highest kind.:) The only thing that saved you is your positive response to Scarface. But seriously, do yourself a favor and watch it. It's weekend anyways.

And if Pacino was not of enough incentive, you have Marlon Brando and Mr. De Niro delivering power packed performance.

Would Paro devour few glasses of margaritas and couple of tonic shots of tequila this weekend? Although I am feeling rather weak, I intend to outdo myself and go nuts. Seriously!
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Happy weekend to all and sundry and thanks for dropping by. Adios!

IndisGuise:)

P.S: I think am asking for trouble. This thread is officially PG-13.

Oh Indi, I missed something there. My previous post was for LFC. She thought it was you who slapped her.

aahha shhh.. Finally found it.

I was waiting for the Chronicles - Moving to move..but my patience gave up on me..
Well Indi, I was wondering if you could write a piece on emotional baggage May be :P .. what do you think?
I was planning to watch God father this weekend but I don't think it is going to happen. But i will one day I will.. ..

Sunnydev bro, she told me she liked it re. Although she's come up to my nose, she seems to fancy me. This time, if you could, make sure she becomes your kleenex. ;)

I do not feel too good after typing this, but since it's already written, am too lazy to erase. Hope you are doingt good!
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Emotional Baggage? tyasto kura ta jaad kha bela mukh ma ta niklinna, tara keyboard ma chai nakkali emotional baggage tana niskincha :p

Ahile kaam ma alik garo hola... mood nahunda. But, let me go back to my pained memories, perhaps then, words will trickle down like a rain drops, on this barren pages, arranging themselves, in to verses to compose the final pieces of my "emotional baggage." Re kya;)

Few moments hai ta. But You have a month to watch that classic. Do yourself a favor, common!

IndisGuise:)

I was thinking may be after summer.. but let me see I might just squeez God Father to my to do list...
I am looking forward to your piece on emotional baggage...
Maile ta jhan jaad khayako bela ma matra testo kura niskincha vane socheko thiya.. Jaad vane bitikai... Chayang ko yaad aayo...

10 - Chronicles Moving!!! ----> Episode - [No] Emotional (Excess) Baggage!!!

The last call was made
I checked-in my suitcases
Few ending moments
To say goodbye

I could not say much
There was no time
I just had a pouch on me
Some documents and cash
I travel light
No excess baggage for me.

Emotions struggling to erupt like a volcano
Which could've cause much discomfiture
To you, and then to me
I turned around and left
A feeble smile that looked bright
How happy I am to say bye-bye
And as I took the stairs for the airplane
I felt enormous weight holding me down
Almost making me turn back
And tell you one last time
To scream, to screech, and make you see. . .
What I would be without thee.

It does not come much heavier,
But you can not see
I know you saw me smiling
I even managed to sell you a lie
When you refused to buy my another truth
Maybe the moment failed me
Or I failed myself.

(It could not have been you.)

This baggage that I carry
Of our dreams and my emotions
Dead emotions...
That you made alive
Which I shall "drown" in misery
And "float" foreve...

And as always,
I travel light
No excess baggage for me!

IndisGuise:)

P.S: Alik abstract bhaye bujera padam hai. ;)

Indi,
Abstrkt lai feri afai bujhera padhda arthko anarth lagyo bhane ni???? Meri basai barbad bhayena ani?

Hahahaha hyper bro. The way my mind worked with "excess" "baggage" after your comment was hilarious. I kind-of like *that* execess baggage, if it is not largely supersized ;)

Catch my drift?

IndisGuise:)

"When you refused to buy my another truth
Maybe the moment failed me
Or I failed myself. "

Ouchh went straight through my heart leaving me motion less..

Thank you SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much.. my thirst has been quenched.
I will not be wrong to say that you are "AASU KABI" Just like that you created a piece on a given topic.. throughly impressed..
waaa waaa..

Ma_Chameli, here - a dettol and some cotton - just in case it made yet another hole in your heart :p. Or did it pass thru the old one? He he!

Afno ta hajarau pwal jha chati ma, aba ta jale hane ni aar paar huncha - open highway bata ahahahahah ;)

Kosish chai garya ho alik sochya jasto bhena, milayera paskamla yehi weekend tira arko. Yo hapta ta behoss nai hune gari thado ghati laincha ani diencha, la ja ta.

IndisGuise:)

another STRRRUUUIKKKE.

always good to read your work.

I dont mean to be picky, but at the end, is it forever? r missing! :P

and mutu ma puwal, tyo ta mero pani cha bro, tannai! :( tyo cha ni auta, underwater tunnel, buwang pareko, ocean ko muni, tesai cha, twang twangti puwal cha mero pani! you're not alone! i feel your pain! :) or :( pick one.
lol.
bhok layo, popeyes kanchu aba!

Teso vaya ta Dettol ra cotton ta timro laagi po pathai dinu parne jasto chha.... another thought may be aafai le ani Dettol ra patti lagai diu jasto laagyo.. Highway nai Really???

Well aba 9 bullets laagera pani 50 Cent is still rocking.. mero euta dui wata Ghau ta ke ho ra....

mero ta weekend aaja bata suru huna thali sakyo even though i have to come to work tomorrow.. thado ghati lagau na ta ma sakdina tara pani ali ali

I got the Kleenex this time. Even your "excess Baggage" didn't sway my thoughts too far. I am a changed man now. uhum uhum...

Welcome back. It has been a long time. Forgive me, I didn't mean to be rude but you gave me nostalgia. You remind me of the day when I started travelling light.
I used to call it 'living low profile'; Running away far from binding emotions; flying up above the holding chians of relationships, love and hatred.

I left my belongings a long ago. But the baggage I unknowingly keep carrying was heavy with pain of seperation; guilt of betrayal. I could never fly again.


You said:
I even managed to sell you a lie
When you refused to buy my another truth

And again you are trying to sell another lie.
How can you drown those emotions and float forever? This pain is killing me. I am drowned never to float again. I left my saviour when I travelled light...

Damn.. SunnyD,

Now, i am thinking out aloud.. Did i leave something or was i left behind..

or may be just may be.. " Mero kuch saman tumhare paas pada hai"

Raate, yep, "R" is missing. Hahaha You know what I read? "UNDERWEAR tunnel, bhwang pareko." I was like LMAO.

Okay, I pick :). :( bhayera basera ni jindagi chalcha? Aye aap gaye jhataro. Ki kaso?
But at times, what's on retrospective is not what actually is. Re kya! Yesdai guff hakda hakda jindagi nai guff huna lagi sakyo mero. Okay I change my mind. I'll take this -> :(
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Ma_Chameli,

6 lane highway ni tyo pani. La ja ta. Timro haat le dettol ra cotton lagaidine? Yeh kash dile nadaa, yeh kash dile nadaa, tune yesa nakaha hotaa, bass kardiya hotaa, wada nakiya hotaa, bhandai bhautarinu parla ma pachi :( if you would not follow up on your words.) Yedi lagainai dine bhaye, kash mere dil ke aur tukde hote, siiyee pani dinthiyou ki?:p

50 cents ko 9 bullets ani timro yeuta duita matra? Umm... let’s say 1.5 wota. Bhanepachi timi, 16.67 cents. Kyarne ajkal number ra analysis le alik pelya cha kaam ma. If 9 bullets = 50 cents, 1.5 bullets = ? 6-7 class ma sikya kaam lagecha :p

Timi thado ghati nalagau, bichara tyo madhira lai pani ta timro woth ko santi le majja linu deu. Afule ta "Keta" daru khaincha. Ani jhyam jhyam bajaincha:) Jenny bhaidya bhe chai thodi thami thami si ruki ruki janthyo hola... aaach ;)
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Sunneydev birader,

A changed man? The only time a woman change a man is when he was a baby RE. And I added, - ... and that is the ONLY time a man can change. He he! Baak sabai life is a stage, and we are.... hahaha!

"...the pain of separation; guilt of betrayal."
-> Afai boksi afaia jhakri bro? LOL. Betray ni garni ajai pain of separation re. LMAO. HAHAHAHA. Did we go to same school? LOL. No no... I was in different class. Mine was, .. the joy of separation; ecstasy of betryal. Yeuta kura ni. ;)

re garding that drowning and floating stuff in the verses...

When we are drowned (dead) our body floats in the water. Thus, my emotions, I plan to drown in my misery i.e., kill it, make it cease to come alive and let it float as a reminder, reminiscence or akin to/simply as the most beautiful/wonderful soccer trophy - in my cabinet back home - that I've won. [in the process I broke my leg.]

But no excess baggage for me, I insist! ;)

So you left your saviour while you travelled light? Lucky you. I was the saviour in my case, although she thinks otherwise. You see, even in separation they have to win. hehehe ;)

SunnyD, ek ad wota afno ni haldine ki. I bet you are more than capable of throwing few of your own.

Thanks for dropping by folks...

Thuk rawo ki muje pyaar karooo mein nashe mein hu...AJAIIIIIIIIII hahaha
IndisGuise ;)

Lat night I listened to all the songs cited on these posts. It was a great night. With warm SAAKE, memoir of my chuteka kuch saamaan and those ghazals, it was a sweet pain. Aaiya.. *cry* Aaha.. *smile* ... I listened to that Nusret Fateh 's Sweet Pain too.

Indi, thanks for the encouragement.
Something like your beautifully crafted words are needed to stimulate my grey cells toward creative mode. Otherwise, these useless cells are busy throwing stupid comments on political and social discussion. Most of the time, they are ignored.

Chameli,
What are you thinking aloud? Someone thought I was wise for my age but you left me bewildered and confused. I am not that good as Stewie though. You know him. don't you? yeah.... yeah... the Griffin.

Indi,
Wada kiya hai to puri vi kardaing gey waqt ke saath.. dekhna to yeh hai ki..sala waqt saath deta hai ki nahi..
kati saaro analysis gareko ho.. la aba ma 16.67 cents vayo ta.. that means i should be rocking 3.33 times more than 50 cent...aahaa..
madira paan garnu gare pachi.. chuski lidai garnai paryo ni.. i shall feel it going through my throat.. and all the intestine to its final destination..

SunnyD..
"I left my saviour when I travelled light... " this particular line made me think aloud; did not expect my thoughts to confuse you.
Well Stewie Griffin that naughty kid from family guy.. i don't watch the show that often.. But if ppl say your are wise for your age then you might be.. or may be just may be they are telling you lies..aha..

My Ohh MY.....didn't realize that I was missing all this.....Indi,I see tht your popularity is getting to the peak huh??? 8840m pugyo aba i guess u need 8 m more... la la badhai chaa....jun thread heryo tyehi hajur ko naam ko gungaan.... aaachhhh.. :-)
Call me emotionless or someone who prefers Excess Baggage...ur last Chronicles didn't get into my head hauu.....