As I packed my bags,
Suitcases filled with cloths
And my modest belongings
My precious plants, framed pictures, and old souvenirs
All neatly boxed, wrapped and ready to be shipped
Tired, I sit on my couch
Thirstily I raise a bottle of water and gulp
My eyes flutter - could it be a sign?

I laid on my bed, closed my eyes,
And then slowly raised my eyelids
On the corner, next to the closet
I saw a white plastic bag
Neglected, wearied, dusty and torn
I stared at it for a moment
Heartbeat loud, paced faster
As if it is you in front of me
Stupid me!
Slowly to the corner, I picked - opened
You smile from the top of the piles
You have not changed
How can you? This was a mere picture
It does not change
Unlike you...
And me...
Then there was this other one, between friends
How that camera caught us stealing those glance
And remember the one in which you cried?
I kept on teasing you until you dried.
Those letters with few words
Inks faded, hardly readable
But amazingly, it's engraved,
In my soul
How is it possible?
I do not even love you anymore.

Again another one to ponder.

:-|

Man, what comes in your mind? You remind me of my friend ; He once said "Kill me and I am free." And here you say "rip me off and I'll come alive."

Anyway, Sinking in the river of denial, you will be embraced by mighty ocean.
I feel I have been at least.
Unrequited love has given alittle bit of selflessness, lot of indifference and emancipation from attachments. I am as if in the blissful state of nirvana.

u should have them published. great work, Indi...

Great as always.. "On this day" made me feel great and "Make me Alive" made me go have some rounds of margarita.
Awesome..

Good to see something different. Good work Indi.

OGOD! I log onto Sajha after ages today... TO see Indisguise turning into Alanis Morissette.... Damn! Metamorphosis... you should name it instead of Chronicles...

Indisguise, thats some good work you've done.

I kinda feel the "pain" thru your poems. Been there, done that! re kya! lol

don't really have to be "pain" but i know what you're trying to say. I FEEL YOU! now now, don't go there!

if some one's thussa, i've tried to "manaying" them, but i've learned to ignore.
who cares, i am not gonna die, would i? i don't care anymore

crap, that just rhymed didin't it!?

i am becoming like you! NOO! lol!

Sunnydev,

"Kill me and I'm free?"
Was your pal a "Neta" ? hahaha I bet he was. I took the liberty of assuming that is must be a "he" considering the possibilities of that person being a "she," in my humble opinion, is zilch. Let me not even go on to elaborate why. Women eh! :)

Emancipated? Lucky you!
I once wrote a piece on this emancipation - an impromptu anecdote while I was an insomniac zombie. Am still seeking one.

And I being in the state of nirvana is completely hinged on her hormones. Know what I mean? LOL.;)

My friend, before I shall be consumed by the mighty ocean, I intend to sink in every river of denial. Coz once I am embraced by the mighty ocean, there is no escape.

Just some philosophical ranting!:p

Keep em coming!
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Felicity, only if your promise to pay/buy. :p
Deal? Hehehe ;)
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Ma_Chameli,

Good that you felt good. But some rounds of margarita in the mid-afternoon?
Would not that make you a female version of Devdas? India ma Paro Nepal ma Chameli hehehe ;)

Did you trash those cloths with unpleasant memories? :)
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Flip_flop,

Variety is spice of life. Don't you think so? I bet you concur with me.

Thanks.

Whateva,
Alanis Morissette eh'? Glad you did not say Britney Spears or someone akin to that genre. I would have committed virtual sucide ;)

Metamorphosis? Hmm. . . I kind of concur with you on this one.

Is not that "IRONIC" ? :)

P.S: Next time you log in, how about considering Bob Dylan? LOL

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Reddy le pani lekhcha. What about that poem that you had in your profile? Hehe

"Manaying" - "them" ? "THEM"????????????
Now that was a blunder. One at a time brother.;) Hahaha.

By the way where is our Babyphat aka our dear Canadian sweetheart? I hope her computer starts to act funny and she shows up here. I bet quite a few people miss her. I sure do. I bet highfly bro does. What about you reddy? Don't you? LOL Hahaha. ;)
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Many thanks for dropping and much appreciation to all and sundry. :)

Few more entries perhaps and I shall bid adieu. Tried one right now but deleted it. Mutu bata awaz naako jasto bho ke hahahahaha... anyways.. will feed more asap. ;)

Happy friday!

IndisGuise:)

Read as:

"Felicity, only if you promise to pay/buy. :p"

You have the control. Spray some testosterone, natural/artificial , no bar.
Try that --- Maukama Mutu pani bolihalcha kee? he he ;-)

Ek purana mausam lauta..
Yaad bhari purwai bhi..
Aisa to kam hi hota hai..
wo bhi ho tanhayi bhi..
The above lines of Javed Akhtar have fueled my enthusiam for writing something so, here it goes

'IN SEARCH'
He came out of pines
circled around few times
mesmerised my soul
fragmented puzzle became whole

Strolled together through cypress groves
amazed by his graceful moves
two melted hearts full of love
amalgamated and flew above
to reside in starry abode

Oh my lord! how could i deny?
have i sensed the missing piece?
now my puzzle looks incomplete

I searched him in rough thickets
I sketched him in dusty roads
I heard him in babbling brooks
I smelt him in rose gardens
and felt him as I stepped onto manicured lawns

Help me put together my missing puzzle
I am longing see you chuckle
Don’t we go together like a wink & smile.
No matter where you are
when you left, I lost a part of me.

Fill your days with smiles...

Nice vantage point.:)

Sunnydev,

I did try your suggestion and guess what, I think I over did it. And the result was obvious. Quantity was high, but quality was hardly worth a look. Did not pass the quality control test if I may put it in business terminology.

But, by virtue of being a Nepali, I can take a liberty to just bribe myself and skip the quality control process itself. Stay tuned hai ta :)
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Vantang bhuntung puwaainttttt,

Damn, that "puawaaitt" word reminded me of this work called "pwat" that few of the folks I knew back home associated with a hot female on the prowl. I have a hunch, or better still, I am confident that the word can be aptly associated with someone on advantageous summit. Re kya;)

I love that Jagjit Singh song. Been a while now. Geet ko kaam chai ke thiyo re.
"Aisa to kam hi hota hai..
wo bhi ho tanhayi bhi.."

Daaami!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

And very poignant piece up there. Beautiful!

But think of it this way - You just lost a part of yourself - some people like yours truly, have lost everything, including the feeling of actually feeling the pain that would make us realize that we did in fact lost the whole of ourselves.

But on the retrospective, I say -

Thoda barbaad huwe to kya barbaad huwe
Kuch yesa karo, ki hum firse aabaad hi na ho sake.:)

Damn! Keta le dincha time time ma. LOL. Hahaha. (Yes, I have learned to appreciate myself. :p)


Keep it coming folks...

IndisGuise:)

Read as - "Geet ko NAAM chai ke thiyo re?"

"But on the retrospective, I would still have said - "

Ignore other typos:O

i thought when you said keta, you meant vantage.

pachi myself re ! LOL

Raate,

At times, we have to learn to entertain ourselves. Ki kaso? ;) Afule le lekhe chi myself nai ta ho ni. Khai ta your mixtures?

Vantang bhuntung pwaaint lai ma kina keta bhannu ni? Apsara pani Keta huncha mora?:p


IndisGuise:)

hare...narnia bhanna thaneko maile ta hehe;)

IndisGuise,
Margarita at any time. though not quite a Devdas yet.

Felicity,

:(. Narnia is fake and this is too. See the connotation? hehe ;)
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Ma Chameli,

Not a Devdas yet? I thought that should have been Paro. Hoina?

Anyways, I think your magarita and my JD are awaiting for us.
Cheers for tonight. Sa se sayeri, Sa se saher, Sa se sawal aur Sa se Sarabbbbbbbbbbbbb. Hahahaha. :)
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Next episode is due tonight-mrow. Hope something will come up tonight ;)

Later folks...
IndisGuise:)

P.S: Felicity, i am waiting for my check ;)