to all those flippant a-holes who think this is funny
F U C K you all
maybe the person who started this thread was baiting people, maybe (s)he wasnt
but it sure as hell aint something you can make jokes about. if you cant offer decent advice, STAY OFF THE DAMN THREAD.
san36, whoever you are, if you are serious about this, its time for you to seek professional guidence. lots of people get suicidal once in their lives, when they feel its not worth it. but you gotta realize that your own take on your life is extremely subjective. if nothing else, talking to a councellor will provide you an outlet, and maybe a chance to see a different prespective on what you have been and what you have done. and maybe then you will come to appreciate your worth, and realize that ENDING your life is not worth it